I finally realize so clearly how much I honestly mean to you.
I apologized for absolutely nothing, I did nothing wrong.
And I didn't even deserve a response from you.
What you don't realize is that you would have been the luckiest guy in the world to be with me.
I would have given you everything, I would've given you the world.
It's 100% your loss, and the saddest thing of all is how you'll never know.
It absolutely kills me that you never even got to know who I am and what I'm about.
But I can't just keep making all the moves,
and I can't just keep chasing you.
Believe me, I wanted this to work more than anything, but you showed me last night, that we will NEVER work.
I'll never get back all those moments I've thought about you.
All the time I've spent with you.
All the nights I couldn't sleep cause I was thinking of you.
Or even the nights when I cried myself to sleep over you.
I hope you find the person your looking for.
And GOD FREAKING BLESS THEIR HEART.
and your disorganization, and your forgetfulness, and the fact that your incredibly anti social and a terrible conversationalist.
All the things that sound so terrible when you say them out loud, but at the end of the day, they're the things that make you you.
And I love them.
As incredibly frustrating as they are.
But I honest to god can't do this anymore.
Which is why it's over, before it ever even really began.